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Happy B'day

This blog post is specially dedicated to my ji mui - Miss Heng Sin Yee... I know it's abit too early to wish you happy birthday now. But if I don't say it now, I'm afraid that I won't be able to say it anymore....

I wish to thank you for all that you've done for the past 1 year I know you... I still remember the first day Joanne intro me to you, and I started to bully you saying that you're Fu Poh when Che Loong passed you some money. I felt the click between us, well not the click of extraordinary relationship, just a friendship, an old friend, though we'd never met..

Since that day, we started to hang out sometimes to eat lunch with all the friends like Che Loong, Joanne, Cynthia, Cindy, Susan etc.. None of them except you who is as close to me like you do..
You're funny, talkative and cheeky so that gives me a closer bond between us...

Well we were not that close until one fine day where we chatted long enough to let me think that you treat me as a close friend.
From that day onwards, I treated you as my ji mui even if you didn't, it's fine...
Erm... Ji Mui not necessary need to hold hands or shopping together 1 hoh?

Then so it came that i had my big mouth who blew many things up, I sincerely apologise here cuz I really didn't expect things to happen this way. I did not ask why as I knew you had your reasons.
Maybe in your mind I've became a big mouth who can't keep a single secret and must share it with everyone else since that incident, well I gotta tell you that I don't....
It's not polite and nice to gossip about others' private stuff, not when it's a matter which affects your future and your happiness...
There is another thing I really need to thank you. Remember the notes you gave me? Haha it's because of you I am able to get the free 10 marks for my FBF final exam. I wouldn't be able to do it without your 'help' and offer. I still owe you 1 meal, so you should always remind yourself about that and consequently you'll come to look for me...

I do mean what I said and before I go, Happy Birthday once more to you...
Maybe you may have forgotten about me after you've departed to Aus or you're too busy to chat with me or both of us won't see each other anymore...
Well I'm still here, to listen to your sorrows, to give you some advices, if possible to share your joy, or if you're too busy, just a couple of greets are good enough...
Till then, TAKE GOOD CARE of yourself, my lovely Ji Mui..
And don't worry, your secret(s) is/are kept safe with me....

她, 被拥有了

隔了三年, 终于把包袱完全的放了下来,
可以好好的享受着, 自由自在,
心想终于有机会恋爱,
换来的, 只有痴心的等待,
还有无止尽的思念与无奈...

原来她早有所属,
那个幸福的人,
早在我和她之前,
偷走了她的心,
在她的记忆深处,
埋葬了他和她的一切...

看着他们之间的照片,
他们之间的互动与亲密,
心里有着千万个羡慕与妒嫉,
羡慕着他们的一举一动,
妒嫉着他所拥有的,
只觉得自己能给的,
可能真的只有 - 迟来得祝福,

不是自卑心作祟,
只是发觉自己,
能有什么去与他媲美,
钱? 样貌? 身形? 时间?
安全感? 还是永恒的爱?
能给的, 当然都会给...
而且他们之间,
那段根深蒂固之恋,
说散就散, 根本不可能,
拆散鸳鸯的滋味可不好受,
当个第三者, 也是要有庞大的勇气,
去受人指责,
再怎么不管,
迟早也得面对.....

现在能做的,
只有等待,
只有奢望,
只有牵挂....